"half past fiveish"
that's the time i turned the lights off last night. way too late, and the fact that i know that david woke up for work around that time didn't really make it any better. needless to say i'm a bit tired today, really tired in fact. reading the whole night til morning, that's something I haven't done in a long time. very long time. it felt good, even though my eyelids felt extremely heavy round four.
don't ask me why I have suddenly turned to the english language, i don't know. but i miss it. i haven't had an english lesson in over a year now. and i really liked them actually. not so much the lesson it self, but keeping my english at a fairly high level. you have no idea how much i have forgotten, how much i have lost. it scares me, cos' i have always seen myself as fairly good in english. a language course in NYC combined with some heavy dance training at BDC or somewhere else would be great. but where the hell am i supposed to get all that money from anyways. three moths, that would cost all in all round 60 000 or 70 000, all costs accounted for. that's more money than i would make in a year working at paprika saving every coin i could spare. and to burn all that in tree months? i don't know. maybe two months would do to begin with? or two weeks? without the language course then, just me (and someone else) a hotel and lots of dance classes. you could get a fairly good hotel for 10 000 the flight ticket would be around 5000 and then other cost like food, dancing, shopping,, tube tickets and such would be around 10 000. that's 25 000 - for two weeks. damn, how am i supposed to manage that? if you could bare to live in a hostel the price would go down a lot though, then it would be round 20 000. more acceptable, but still a lot of money.
Well some day I will walk on the streets of New York City. If it's the last thing I'll ever do.
Peace out//Amahleen