Amahleen -

I have to dance!

there's something missing in my life right now. something that has been a big part of my life for a long time. dancing. i miss it so much. you have no idea how much. i haven't been to a single dance class in over a month, due to this cold i've still got. and this week will have to be dedicated to schoolwork so there'll be nothing this week either. fuck this! i need to dance, i feel it with every fiber of my beeing! how people who have never danced survive i have no idea. i get depressed and sad if i don't dance. however, daning here in malmö is not the same as in gbg, it's good, and i had my best dancing experience ever down here when misha gabriel and nick bass danced to smooth criminal, but it is still not the same. i miss my locking classes, i miss mtv for z and i miss mtv for nina. ofcourse i miss the clases i had wth the twins too, thats only natural as much as i've been going on about them.

i need to dance!
i need to let go and just dance
in a dance class with a nice coreo. unfortunaltly the coreos they do here are not (mosty) of the quality that allows you to just let go. all just small steps and real controlled. i need locking och house or dancehall. or hype! hype would be so much fun!

and you know what?! it's snowing! (fuck me sideways)

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-11-04 @ 16:14:50 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

so....I did it again

I payed alot of money for alot of pictures of myself in weird poses and with alot of makeup. but i had a great time!

and this is just a few...

there's not alot of ego shots of me in this blog, so I'm compensating for that now! ;)

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-11-01 @ 01:52:50 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (1) Trackbacks ()

btw

they called from expert about my phone. finally, not a minute too early. and you know what they tell me? that my phone will not be repared, but that i'll get a new one instead (and i'll get a black one instead of a red, not that it matters really, if i wanted a red one i would have had to wait for another two weeks though. ee, i think not!) couldn't they have told me this from the beginning? i even told them that i have a friend who have the same phone and when her's did the same shit that mine did, she got a new one, no (few) questions asked. if they know that this model has problems like this, which they clearly do, why go through the troble of even trying to fix it?
well well, what ever, i'll have my new black nokia on friday. then begins the hard work of getting all my important numbers back. yay, how fun. not to mention all my music, all the songs that i have danced to and all the remixes and shit. i love this. not

i think i'm gonna be boring and pass up on a beer(cider, coctails, shots) night tonight. even if we have reason to celebrate i'm just too tired to get up from this couch today. i'm gonna take a power nap now though, maybe i'll feel more motivated later.

peace in the middle east!

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-10-28 @ 15:23:53 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (1) Trackbacks ()

exam in contemporary history over and done with!

I feel sooo relived that it's all over! finally! not that I don't like history, but honestly how fun can it be to learn every important date going back 500 years? not that I have learned everyone, but yea.... I have never during my previous education been asked to learn dates. it's always been "as long as you know the general idea of what happened". gaah!maybe I should call my history teatcher from highschool and inform him of this fact? but anyways, now it's over and done with, and it actually felt pretty good!
got my argumentative paper back today as well! and you know what?! I got a C! I'm so happy! not that it's the highest, A and B is obviously higher, but I could have gotten D and E and stil have passed, so I'm happy as hell.
and no lectures until monday! loooong weekend (that will be filled with field research and presentation preparations, but today I'm just gonna relax)

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-10-28 @ 11:51:51 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

so you think you can dance?

it's amazing how much this show has meant for dance to help it gain ground in the public eye, how much amazing coreografies we have been able to be part of and how much talented dancers we have seen grow. i have laughed and cried and done evrything in between. hope you all take time and actually watch these clips, some of my favorites are in there.

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-10-24 @ 17:00:42 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

Dope shit!

I love this shit! makes me wanna shake my ass real bad! haha. i skipped the dance classes this week. why i was so stupid i don't know. i regret it big time. o, well, i know why i did it, the first one i totaly forgot(oops), and yesterday were not a good day, slightly hung over and still with a dripping nose i didn't really feel like jumping on my bike kickin' off to the studio. should have done it though, i feel like i would have needed it now. ah, well, party this weekend, there will be plenty of ass shaking going on anyways.
and this Trish girl, her music is dope! but i can not find it anywhere! and manny acosta? that's some nice shit there too. and i can not find it! it's killing me!

so how's things?

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-10-09 @ 17:27:11 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

sick

i've caught a cold. and it's slowly turning to be more than a cold i think, which sucks. so tonight i'll be the one who stays in, under a quilt on the sofa, with chocolate, candy, cookies with milk, and coke. just treating myself to unhealthy foods. sometimes you are allowed to do that. i'm feeling a bit sorry for myself. i'm watcing dobidoo, and i don't even have my family here to blame for it.

the lecurer we had today is really cute, if cute is the word to use. a real university professor, old with a really big stomach and glasses, who knows what he's talking about. and even if my head were like two meters above my body i could actually follow his lecture. the cold war, i had no idea it was so complicated, and yet so obvious. i don't know, but it was a good lecture.

tomorrow i'll have to clean my apartment. it's insane how fast i can mess things up in here. fun...not.

i hope things are going well in götlaborg. coming up not next weekend but the weekend after that. again. it will be fun.

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-10-02 @ 20:49:03 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

shoes, again?

yes, again...however, i can return them if i want... if i know myself i will never do that, but a girl can pretend right? 800 kr is 800 kr more than i can afford to put on shoes right now, but it was an instant romance when i saw them. and tey were the only ones left in my size. it was meant to be, it's as simple as that. and they are so pretty!

the low healed boots (not the ones in the top but the one closest) are now in a bag here in my apartment, and i absolutley love them!

i had fun spending time with vic today as well. insane that we haven't seen etch other since we graduated. and we ran in to karin, which was fun. felt just like old times, sort of, (haha intern joke with my fellow IRs)

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-09-30 @ 01:11:19 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

Starstruck, me? Never!

the workshop was incredible! so amazing you have no idea! and i think i have fallen in love with Misha Gabriel, he was sooo good! the coreo was very much inspired by MJ, no surprise there. and it was so nice! didn't really agree with my body, but hey, i had fun!
the sickest, dopest ,most amazing part was when Nick Bass and Misha Gabriel danced one of the coreos they were suposed to perform on stage with MJ on the "this is it" tour.
they danced to smooth criminal, one of my favorite songs, and it was truly amazing. the hair on my arms stood up, i swear! the closest thing anyone can come to see MJ's last tour live now is to se his dancers, and imagine him standing there in the middle, them posing around him. some times you could really see where MJ would be standing, i was so starstruck. haha.

now i'm gonna jump in the shower and then jump all the way in to bed, i have a lecture in academic writing and rhetoric towmorrow, wanna be able to concentrate atleast a little bit.

btw, i bought new shoes today, again. no sneakers though. i don't need new sneakers, but i want new sneakers! i love sneakers!

ok, so this is the long version, be patient with it ok?

and this is my new shoes! I LIKE!

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-09-24 @ 00:09:30 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (3) Trackbacks ()

I know i don't need it, but I gotta have it!

found this vid. what can I say, I can relate. I love shoes! and truly, i don't need them, but i gotta have them!

Anders came over for a "fika" it was nice. and the homesicknes came over me. as i said, i like it here, i like it alot actually. but i miss so manny things back home as well. but i'm going home this weekend, so it's gonna be nice. it's just that i'm such a crybaby, people think things are worse than what they really are.

and with that i'm heading out to the SNS store! sneakers and stuff here I come, I have shoes on my agenda!

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-09-23 @ 12:34:03 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (2) Trackbacks ()

International Relations

this blogging thing seems to be fun only when i'm bored, doesn't it? today in academic writing we talked about different ways to say things, how you, by using words, can take the same information and portray it as good or as bad. like;
newclear power plants stand for 20% of the US energy = alot
or
newclear power plants stand for only 20% of the US energy = not so much

we also talked about cells. and former president Bush. and alot of grammar. english grammar is confusing. i think this course will only serve to make me more confused, there are rules for everything. and the commas! gosh! i had no idea something so simple could be so hard!
we had a teatcher named Steve, Steve comes from england, you can tell by the way he talks. Steve has no humor, but he makes jokes anyways, jokes that makes no one laugh. it was brutal.

i also had a teatcher in contemporary history today, he's from Skåne, you could tell by the way he said "Åland" in the middle of all the nice american english. that was funny. kind of the same weird feeling i get when i have to say Laura in swedish while speaking english, but even weirder.

so, i'm coming up to gbg next weekend. it will be nice, meet some friends, just feel at home, know the city and the people, not having to worry about what people really think about you. because you do, really, people say they don't, but that is not true. of course they care. it's a new place and a new town for almost everyone, and you need to make new friends, and until you really get to know people it's hard to feel secure about them. however, i think i'll make some good friends here, eventually.
the english is coming along, which feels good. atleast i understand everything, but it's alot of extra work.

btw i had to pay almost 500 kr for my train ticets! insane! that's what they call student price? it's alot of money!

peace!

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-09-17 @ 22:35:21 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

new (old) hair

and the fringe is back. (or bang(s?) if you are from the U.S) i decided that it was time to do someting about the birdsnest that has been my hair for a couple of months now. so i went down to one of the many hairdressers we have here. she charged me 200:- for my new haircut. i thouht it was a really good price, and i like it. however, it will take me some time to get used to the fact that it needs so much work.
life goes on, i'm thinking of going up to gbg next weekend, not this weekend but the one after that. see my family, my friends and just see if i will be able to go back here. (of course i will be able to, but you know what i mean) take some danceclasses would be fun too. talking about dance, i signed up for a workshop with one of the dancers that were supposed to be on MJs "this is it" tour. how cool is that!
and i'm behind in my studies, there is just so much to read! and yesterdy wasn't exatctly one of my more productive days. it's good we don't have any lectures tomorrow. :p

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-09-17 @ 11:02:28 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (1) Trackbacks ()

English it is

life here in malmö goes on. as it should be doing I guess. I will become extreamly fit after three years here, i take the bike everywhere. it's nice. it will suck when the real bad weather starts roling in though.
the housing problem for students in malmö is extencive, or so i've heard atleast, i've heard about people sleeping in the central station. that's just sick! makes me realize how lucky i have been, not only did my apartment all but hit me in the face, it's also the best student apartments in malmö acording to the people i have spoken to. and i'm not surprised. i would upload pictures, but my camera have decided that now is a good time to break down compleatly. well, can't be lycky all the time.
got home from the dance class not too long ago. i had a great time actully, but the style, "the L.A style", will take some getting used to. i would like to have more groove in it, but i guess that i'll have to get better at this as well, you should practice on a broad scale. i'm still a litle weirded out that i'm in the highest level. i will absolutley not say that i'm one of the best in the class, but it is the right class for me, anything lower would be too easy. and they give us just enough coreo for me to be able to catch up, which is nice, normaly i feel like they give too much coreo for me to handle in one class.
school. whet can i say? i think it will work out fine as long as i'm up to date with the lectures and try to read some things ahead. and when i get used to the language beeing used. the english the teatchers use in a lecture and the language i use in day to day speaking is quite different from one another. but i think i'll be fine.

(okay, this is all for getting the english writing back into my system, it's been gone for a while, ever since NYC)

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-09-09 @ 22:23:42 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

I'm a student now

I don't know if i'm made for the life of a university student. i think i like sitting on the sofa with a good book or a movie and cup of tea way too much. i wouldn't call me a loner, but i can not agree that partying and clubing is the best thing ever, not like some of the students' here seem to think. i love clubing, i love dancing so that's a given, but the drinking til you can't stand? i don't really get the facination. really. sure iv'e done it, and regreted it dearly the day after. i just don't know if i think it's worth it.
maybe i'm boring. probably so. i guess i'll live though

it's not that i don't like it here. i do. it's great, and i love my apartment. and the program will come around great i think. i just miss the things that i left behind too. my friends, my family, the dancing. the city, i miss knowing my way around the city like it's my own back pocket. i feel abit stupid walking around with a map.

and tell me, stores did not close at 16:00 on saturdays, right? well, they did here, atleast some of them.

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-09-06 @ 23:49:54 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

I like to move it move it

så jag har flyttat till malmö. det finns så mycket som jag skulle kunna berätta om. skriva sida upp och sida ner. men jag orkar inte skriva så mycket. jag kan ju berätta att jag trivs. att jag har hat min första föreläsning och att jag har träffat en tjej som herer kajsa som är väldigt trevlig. hon bor i samma hus som mej och går i samma klass, det är nice.
jag har även kommit in i dansen, det kostar 2100kr för 2x14 klasser, hemma i göteborg betalade jag 2800 för 6x12 klasser, 3400 kr för 8x12. det är DYRT att dansa här. men jag behöver dansa, som ni vet. stilen är inte alls vad jag är van vid så jag känner mej lite lost, men det ska nog bli bra. hängde med ganska bra och då hade de haft koreografin i en lektion tidigare. det roligate är att jag hamnat i den högsta nivån, och att jag faktiskt can hold my own. dansen i göteborg är på så mycket högre nivå.
jag har för övrigt massor att göra. adressändring och beställning av en bok från internet, tvätta, dammsuga.
sen ska jag ju plugga med.

en anekdot är att jag kommer bli sjukt fit av att bo här. Laura gör som alla studenter här i malmö och cyklar - överallt, hela tiden.

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-09-03 @ 22:01:12 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

moving so soon?

om en och en halv vecka börjar jag läsa på malmö högskola. och då har jag också flyttat ner till malmö. lämnat öjerjö,

presumably for good. odds are i will not return, not to live here at least. visit, of course, but live here, i doubt it. it's a little scary actually. after all i have lived here all my life.

today i'm gonna hang with andrea and on sunday she will leave for China for three weeks, and when she comes back i'll be in malmö. it's a litle sad.

fred ut//Amahleen

2009-08-21 @ 12:38:41 Permalink Som om någon nånsin bryr sig Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

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weird

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...so, this is what it means to be a student?

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